Consistency

I realize that I lack consistency. I live my life in a state of organized chaos. Or at least in my imagination I do. I will not horrify you by posting a picture of what my desk looks like, or my kitchen counters, or the laundry room for that matter. And I most certainly will not be showing you my bedroom! But I would like to be more consistent. I would like to post to this amazing (yeah that's what I am going with today) little blog at least twice a week. Will that happen? Probably not. Would I post more regularly if my computer wasn't crap and didn't take 2 1/2 hours to load one page? Maybe. Maybe not. The world will never know.

Today I will focus on nothing. Absolutely nothing. I wanted to zero in on some sort of an amazing topic. But I have got nothing. Little Red refuses to nap. All I can hear right now in my head are the sounds of her whining about this or that or the other. Now I am not complaining about taking care of my amazing little offspring. Don't get me wrong. I love and adore my kids. Maybe too much sometimes.

I don't have a job outside the home (unless you are willing to count my couponing and grocery shopping work, which they are work). I haven't had a paying job for over a year now. Sometimes those 4-6 hour shifts were such a pain in the... well you know. Other times I craved them. Just to have some time out of the house to talk to adults, and feel like more than a mom. Every now and again I consider getting a job outside the home. Something little that doesn't consume a lot of time. But with 3 minions and a Side O Beef that works long hours, our family time has become precious. I don't want to lose out on that. But I need something. Something for me. Something meaningful. Something fun!

Last weekend, I left the Side O Beef at home with the minions and ventured out into the world. Childless and alone. I made a decision. I am ready. Ready to devote a few hours a week to a new hobby. And its not drinking. I considered it(trust me I considered it!), but that gets costly. And really what is the outcome? Oh yeah, My vacation! Well, I am not yet ready for that vacation.

So instead, I signed up for a cake decorating class! Yup, Me! Its been a hobby for some time now. Heck, I even have a tool box of cake decorating supplies thanks to MK and my Fave Uncle! But now, I want to learn proper techniques and how to make those damn roses. Self teaching yourself (is that redundant?) how to make something that you have no idea how to make is pretty hard. I have learned a lot by trial and error over the years. But I want to be good at this. Really good. The Side O Beef is rather supportive. He encouraged, while I doubted. He pushed, while I dug my heels in. But in the end he is right. I need this for me. Something just for me. I am excited!

My first class is next Monday. I am planning on keeping my amazing little blog up to date on my success and failures. If I can even keep the blog up to date! See this is where the consistency comes into play. First, I wanted to be a mom. Then I wanted to be a blogger. Next came the couponing. And now I want to be a cake decorator. Next week, I am thinking about becoming a lion tamer. Oh no, wait. That's what I already am with these minions it seems. Geez they are crazy.

Now what was I saying? Oh, yes! Consistency. Obviously I have none. I can't even stay on one singular topic. But who likes mundane blog posts? It's much more fun to be random and hodge podge and here and there and everywhere! Or at least in my mind. And that counts for something!

Let's recount what I have accomplished today. Oh yeah, nothing. My desk is still messy. My kitchen counters still cluttered. My laundry room still full. And I still don't want to talk about my bedroom. But I did update my blog, and that has got to count for something.